Too much to carry

carry me again
don’t touch me
i will lose my mind
but i’m thinking right
too many walls i’ve seen
couldn’t keep me out
what makes you think i’m lost?

faded memories bring more pain
but crystal clear, and i don’t want to do it again
makes me afraid
too much happiness
not good
the best ones are vague
entangled with emotions
that feeds my heart
otherwise its a blood pumping device
just another machinery
keeping me alive