Time

for the last time,
I looked for some stability
something to think of besides the abnormal;
a focus for life
but it seems
things keep on happening
and i cannot help
but be inspired by these changes
and wait for them to take me somewhere

for the first time, i know
i haven’t understood myself
but
you do
let me think so
for now
i’m afraid

clarity, for some reason, doesn’t exist!