carry me again don’t touch me i will lose my mind but i’m thinking right too many walls i’ve seen couldn’t keep me out what makes you think i’m lost? faded memories bring more pain but crystal clear, and i don’t want to do it again makes me afraid too much happiness not good memories, [...]
Archive for the ‘chaos’ Category
for the last time, I looked for some stability something to think of besides the abnormal; a focus for life but it seems things keep on happening and i cannot help but be inspired by these changes and wait for them to take me somewhere for the first time, i know i haven’t understood myself [...]
I wish i hadn’t woken up tonight like i always do, chasing after you! I can’t find my notes – my blind lines neither my pen or a paper to fight with the hurricane in my mind. Been playin games, on facebook for a while and I’m getting dark ugly circles under [...]
So much in my head So much and I don’t know what it is! I’m always trying to escape. So much thoughts So much in my mind and I can’t get anywhere! I am trapped! I can’t do anything. Emotional distress! My heart keeps running, constant anger, painful irritation! My soul keeps crying. My eyes [...]
Truth is the devil, that lurks behind our lies. What would you do to prove that you’re right? well, i… i’d find all the holes in you make some more if i have to to pour it inside you! i’d shout, at the top of my voice or give you a gaze through a pair [...]
i see a cart, a load of sand i see a hardtop, over the rubber bands a man puffing pride, straightens his tie a man resting in sweats, unable to stand too hard to live, too soft to die i watch them stare and look away unable still, to battle my gaze [...]
All that love could ever bring me, was needles, without strings; to run through the wounds in my feeble heart! Well, this is not how i’m feeling right now … just wanted to let you guys know that i’d written this some time ago…Cheers!!
Please! Give me a place to pour out this rage or i’ll get burnt, i swear and i’ll burn you out with me!
Can you explain why you feel sad? Can you ever know what makes you feel down? Everything can’t be the way you want them to be, everyone can’t be what you expect them to be. And this truth that you can’t seem to understand, governs you unquestionably! What does it take to be liked by [...]
as you’re taking yourself out of my mind as you pretend to sacrifice, and act kind i sit here watching my precious find this rage, that drove me blind i wish to keep it! i wish i could see what you see, i pray that there’s no such thing as eternity for i wish to [...]
oh please! this life stings again. injects the poison into my heart. this time it hurts more the raw wound is still swollen and the blow brings just more than pain i wish to die! cut my veins and bleed slow but i don’t want you to take that pain oh please! life seems too [...]
i wish, when you sneak up to me, and whisper those beautiful dreams, i could smell your skin. i would grab your arm, and roll over to give you some space… in my cold stone-bed. Then i hear you scream – from the sudden frigid chill, upon your skin! My deepest fear! My worst nightmare!
transparent
Posted: March 12, 2008 in abstract, chaos, fiction, music, poetryTags: lamentation, the afterlife
Everytime i see you, i try to say how much i love you but you never listen to me, You’ll never understand… Everytime you fall down, i try to lift you up but you never notice me you never hold my hand When you are lonely, i try to give you company but you never talk to [...]
Red is the colour of your lovely lips, carved into a smile. the lining of the upper one perfectly curved like a distant bird – flying… the lower, trembling – teasing my lips. Red is the colour of your cheeks from lady shyness. A strand of hair falls, a futile attempt – to hide your [...]
Woody Craftsman – Vengeance
Posted: March 11, 2008 in abstract, chaos, poetryTags: horror, pride, rage, Vengeance
you saw me sneaking, you saw me hide you watched me suffer, you made me cry now bitch! watch this! while i give it a try you will be grateful if you die! ha! so you thought you could run? you thought you could hide? nah! death cannot be your alibi ’til you see my [...]
“Get a life!” cries the voice. while i sit staring at the monitor. its been a shitty 6 hours! … i don’t feel a thing! i’m just living. i’m just talking. i’m just smiling. i’m just walking. i’m just complaining. i’m just crying. i’m just burning! but i don’t feel a fucking thing! and yes, i’m living. … a little bit of love and i’m so fucking spoiled. “Get a life!” cries the voice. … You freak me out! cut me, and i can’t remember the pain! see? i’m so spoiled again!
It’s like – i’m inside,a large glass bottle. i can move aroundand i can see the worldthrough the slippery walls – distorted and i can see,the hole above…that would let me, out but i have to squeeze!i have to crush my head,and my bonesand wriggle out -like a worm I’ve tried thatcountless timesand …i’m still [...]
rotting slowly
Posted: March 1, 2008 in abstract, chaos, poetryTags: agony, defeated, end, pain, sorrow
[What is this that i feel? and how do i know that it will never heal? I've never talked about it - never! but what is in it that i can never conceal?] My crime has brought me this punishment and i lie here, waiting for more I look forward towards my destiny Trying hard [...]
tick…tick…tick…tick… he races a clock on his mind. The sounds of the of the whistling wind kiss his ear… but its hard for him to notice. He is counting the rhythmic intervals on his mind- trying hard to equalize them with the actual seconds. He matches his footsteps with the ticks – slow steady steps. [...]
